A deep sense that they will be fine in the world without me.

This pledge will leave my lifestyle untouched and that of my children as well. They have already received significant sums for their personal use and will receive more in the future. They live comfortable and productive lives.

More than I can, sadly. I led the softest of lives in the softest of times, and my daughter will face sterner challenges.

So it seems to be my responsibility, particularly to my children, also to my wife and friends, is not to be Pollyanna and pretend everything's okay no one would take me seriously if I said that but it's to be as present in their lives now as I can be so that in years to come, they don't feel either guilty or bad at my having been left out of their lives, that they feel still a very strong not a memory of particular actions but a memory of a complete family rather than a broken one. That seems to be something I can do or try to do.

Ultimately, a bigger hallway.

Being a cocktail waitress and having to wear a compromising dress in an unwoke 1990s world.

Through rose-tinted spectacles.

To have the courage to fail.

Wearing 90s ripped-at-the-crotch jeans at Rada during an unarmed combat session and showing everyone more than they bargained for.

People who abuse their power to subjugate others.